we woke up one morning and fell a little further down...

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It has been about one month since I have last updated my journal, and a lot has happened.
-Thanksgiving
-Hospital
-Show
-Finals
-Christmas {almost}

I will give all the readers a brief recap of all those events. Thanksgiving went really well at my house. The whole family came over and it was just like a normal Thanksgiving; it was so long ago I really don't have much to say about it. Although, that morning I woke up with a very bad sore throat. That developed over time into a bigger issue, which on that Monday sent me to the doctor's office, then on the following day sent me to the emergency room. Apparently, my throat closed up so I could hardly breath. I was hospitalized until that Friday afternoon. Mark, Kaydie, Joe, and Shae came to visit me, seeing them made me feel a lot better mentally and physically. So thank you for that.
The Saturday after I got out my band played our first show, which went very well. Thank you to all those people who came out, and Shae for letting us play. We practiced so hard and so long, for that day and I truly think every second of it paid off and got us to where we were perfectly. I hope we will play another show again in the near future because it was such a good experience.
School has been getting hard the past few weeks. Between friends and school, I have not had much time for anything else. Finals are next week, I am nervous about those, but I know once it is all done I will have a nice winter break. Although, I still do not drive. I have put a lot of thinking into this, and 2 years later, I came to realize why I do not. It is simply because I am afraid of failure. I don't want to put all this time into it, have someone commit a day to take me to the DMV, and get everyone's hopes up, just for me to fail. Everyone, that is why I don't drive. It still to this day bothers me when people hassle me about it, we all know I don't, why rub it in my face? Kaydie always gives me a hard time about it, and it really bothers me. It is as if I do not know anything about how to drive, or how a car works, simply because I don't have my license. Unjustified and undeserved.
With that aside, Kaydie and I are in a magnificent state of bliss, with no ignorance. I saw her everyday last week, which was very lovely. Recently, we have had more "us" time than usual, or so it seems to me. I like that, although, being around others is fun too. The bad part is we can never think of plans, and then things get restless. I like to take life place by place; downtime is never a bad thing.
I don't really have much to say, I was actually forced to update with this entry. It has hard to update when my life is going so perfectly, people don't enjoy reading that material.


Happiness is not achieved by the conscious pursuit of happiness; it is generally the by-product of other activities.
Aldous Huxley

Is love supposed to last throughout all time, or is it like trains changing at random stops. If I loved her, how could I leave her? If I felt that way then, how come I don't feel anything now?
Jeff Melvoin