i'm stepping away so just keep batting your eyes...

Recently, Katie and I haven't been talking, I am not sure if that is good or bad. All I do is try to make her happy, and help her see what {I think} is best for her; but I have came to the conclusion that I don't know what's good for her. I guess if smoking, lying, and what not is good for her, then that's what she can do; but I don't want to be associated with that, or have anything to do with it. All that I have done is out of pure intentions, I just wanted the best for her. I have tried so hard, but I suppose I was wrong, I don't know what she needs. I honestly don't think I deserve this, but correct me if I am wrong.
My friend Lauren posted a comment on a pervious entry:
"There is something very important that comes with age that one cannot get from reading a book, from school etc. It's called experience. Going through the phases of growing up and learning from each day."

I can see very well where she is coming from. Maybe I can't show Katie what to stay away from, I guess she just has to grow and learn from her experiences. I tried, I really did. If I do drop it and let her find her way, I hope she ends up on the right foot, without going through too many bad experiences; although that is growing up.

It is just so hard to trust her, I really want to though.

My homepage is a website that gives me information, daily news, weather, and most interestingly: daily quotes, 3 quotes a day. Todays quotes:

Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.
- George Santayana
and
Hegel was right when he said that we learn from history that man can never learn anything from history.
- George Bernard Shaw

I found those rather fitting, same as this, I don't know why I didn't see this connection sooner:
" I heard about your trip
I heard about your souvenirs
I heard about the cool breeze and the cool nights
And the cool guys that you spent them with
I guess I should have heard of them from you
I guess I should have heard of them from you
Well don't you see, don't you see
That the charade is over
And all the "best deceptions" and the
"Clever cover story" awards go to you

So kiss me hard
'Cause this will be the last time that I let you
You will be back someday
And this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips
Will be of service to keeping you away"


I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best.
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much fun
without me by your side, without me by your side?"
And I'll take a step back, and I'll let you ahead.
And I will take a step away and see if you come back.
Because there's no more trying to make this so right,
there's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same until you're done.

Love,
Jeff Micklos...